Interesting article di mel and I don't have an answer for your last questions but its interesting to ponder. I don't smoke, drink and never touched illegal drugs. I also eat well and exercise basically doing all the right things....but been through intense stress and hope this won't be my downfall. I want to live as long as I can to see my girls have children hopefully. What kept me going was operating on survival but not as its mentioned in the article. Mine came from sheer determination of not letting 2 toxic people ruin my life.

I look back at my older brothers life and how he spend so many years not utilizing the potential I saw in him. I don't want to feel this way about my own life.