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(not to scare you, but you reached out, so I hope that a cyber hug is ok)

My heart aches for you. That took a lot of courage to tell us about what happened, and I'm glad that you were able to do that, and also that there are people in 3-D who know and who care about you and are trying to help you. Well, it sounds like at least one anyway, but I think that your friend and your pdoc will come through for you too. Sometimes we seem to have to sink to the bottom to find a place where we can push off and start to heal. I have hope that you will be able to use what happened towards your recovery. It's slow, and it isn't easy, but you can do it.

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>