One day. You couldn't give me one damn day to go thru one of the crappiest days of my life without piling more crap onto it. You sound like one of than many people I've met that I have had to prove I'm sick because they don't see it. You are worse than them because I'm assuming that if you are on here, you suffer from some sort of illness and you should know better than to jump on someone. You weren't harsh. You were a rat bastard.

Before I get banned, I will try and answer all your questions. BTW, you could have asked the exact same questions in a non accusatory way and it wouldn't have bothered me at all. But you don't seem like someone who cares what others thinks. My God, you put your heart out there and someone has to piss all over it. Ok here we go.

1.Why did your husband ask you to leave? Because he couldn't stand living with someone who is sick. I have crazy mood swings, I'm overly sensitive, I'm agoraphobic and can't leave the house to go eat dinner with my family at a restaurant. He said he felt like a single parent and this was having a negative effect on the girls. I'm sure there are other reasons, but those are the main ones.

2. Why can't you make sacrifices to be a better person for your children? I'm not quite sure what this means. Do you mean get over being sick and be fine so I can be a better person? Are you sure you are even sick, because you really do sound like someone who just doesn't get it.

3.Why would you leave your children in the first place? I needed a little break from my homelife and they needed a break from me. I was in the middle of a breakdown and had to just go somewhere where I wouldn't feel judged. And I know you are going to ask about the agoraphobia. Truth is, I don't know why I can't go to a restaurant 2 miles from my house, but I can be driven over 100 miles to my best friends house. It doesn't make sense at all. I can tell you this, ever since I've gotten to her house, which was in Sept, I have left maybe 5 times. And three of those were dr. appts.

4. I don't have enough info on this, but if you are so upset, you can always travel back home to spend more time with them. You could have tried to arrange to go home for your daughters birthday to spend the day with her.

I couldn't get a ride home. I don't have a car and my friend has already taken enough time off of work to take me to dr. appts. Plus, I felt that she would probably have a better birthday without me. I have been home once and that was Thanksgiving. I ruined it because I wanted to stay and ended up having a mini meltdown when I was told I could not.

5. Listen to me: You are not there because you chose not to be. Nothing on this earth can keep a mother from her child. Everything you do and have done is done by choice. No one can force you to do anything. Your husband asked you to leave and you left. Your choice. You may have had other options.

Listen to me. You are probably...I don't even know what to say. You can't say crap like that without asking someone the details.
I thought there was nothing on Earth that could keep a mother from her child. I felt the same way. Until I realized it would be selfish for me to push my way back into her life when she didn't want me. That would be selfish on my part.
Yes. I was my choice to leave. FOR 2 WEEKS. Not for life.
The best way to describe why I'm not fighting like hell to get back in my family's life is in a bible story. Even if you aren't religious, this explains it all.

Two prostitutes came before Solomon to resolve a quarrel about which of them was the true mother of a baby. (The other's baby died in the night and each claims the surviving child as hers.) When Solomon suggests dividing the living child in two with a sword, the true mother is revealed to him because she is willing to give up her child to the lying woman rather than have the child killed. Solomon then declares the woman who shows the compassion is the true mother and hands the child to her.

Hope that makes sense. It is my sacrifice to leave my family alone. That is best for them. Not me. It is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. So when you say a mother would never be a part from her child, think of that bible story and realize that love isn't always what you think it should be.

6.Financial difficulties? Get a job. Make money to support yourself so you can get a car.

I'm on disability due to my crappy illnesses. I would rather work than take money from the state, but I can't. So, I cannot save up for a car. I have to pay rent and buy my groceries. And that leaves me about $80 for the fun things like meds, dr appts and other frivolities like that.

7. MAKE CHANGES in your life, otherwise you will spend the rest of your life miserable and nothing will change.

WOW, you are wise person. I never thought about NOT being sick!! I'm just lazy. Or maybe it's a case of the blues. I mean, everyone has bad days, right?? I just need to buck up and be normal! (are you sure you belong on this board? Nevermind, I don't care)

8.You don't want your daughter growing up too fast without you being a big part in her life do you?
No. I don't.

9.I apologize in advance for sounding so harsh. I just really want you to try and make decisions in your life that will benefit you in the long run. While you may not take anyone advice I will hope one day you will be happy.

You didn't not apologize in advance. That would be apologizing before you wrote all this judemental crap. You apologized after the fact. Anyway, I would love to make decisions in my life that would benefit me in the long run. I would love to here what the answers are from you. Because CBT, meds, group therapy, ECT, and hospitalization are not. I've done them all. Many times.

You don't hope I'll be happy. You came on here to give me some sort of internet smackdown while I was vulnerable. Probably thinking I would ignore your crap, but I have answered every single thing you have written. I pray to God you don't think you can grow up to be a counselor or psychologist. because I think Hitler would be more compassionate.

I should have KNOWN not to get on a message board. There is always at least one person who knows it all. You have all the answers. But they are all wrong.

I don't know if you guys use YAGE on this board, but it means Yet Another Grand Exit. It's for melodramatic posters who leave declaring never to return, but they always come back eventually. I am leaving. I don't need some internet a$$hole judging me. I have already spent way more time on answering your questions than you deserve. I'm gone, thanks to the people who were kind to me. That's what I came here for. Empathy. Some guidance. Not this crap. But this is typical of message boards.