I haven't posted here in a long time. I have not been well. I'm in therapy and I just feel like I'm in this deep hole and I keep trying to crawl out and I can't. I guess I haven't been completely honest with my therapist. She's so nice I'm just scared to say what I'm thinking or what I'm going through. I feel so scared all the time. I don't know how to get through this bump. I'm trying so hard to stay positive. I called the crisis line and I couldn't even follow through with that...cause a man answered. I can't do this anymore. I'm so tired, I'm just ready to give up right now. I'm sorry. I just feel so desperate. I hope I make it through this one cause I don't feel strong enough this time around. I'm sitting at the very edge of my last straw.