No need to thank me. I have absolutely no doubt you're doing the best you can, and that is all we can expect out of anyone, in any circumstance.

No need to hate yourself either...I know it sucks. Agoraphobia can be absolutely crippling in and of itself...that's without taking into consideration anything else. You're doing all you can in the face of adverse circumstances that are out of your control. That is all you can do. That, and to simply keep on going, one day at a time.

I am happy to hear you were able to talk to your daughter, though saddened that you felt she wasn't "overjoyed" to hear from you. Give her some time there...my father suffers from bipolar. For years, I never understood truly what that meant, and I resented him for so often making visitation a living hell. Once it clicked with me though...I was able to understand him so much better. We're in the process of sort of rekindling a relationship now. I would think, her given some time to truly understand and grasp what you deal with on a day to day basis, that she would understand.

Sending hugs your way.

Harley