Well, the "faith" has to come from you as well Big Mama, and that is hard for someone who is struggling with PTSD. There is a lot of unknowns for a while and people that have PTSD get very stressed with "unknowns".

I am very sorry about this friend you have talked about that you connected with. I hope that he gets the help he needs and is in the right place for him. Maybe someday the two of you will have some very healing words for each other. But for now you have to be on your own journey for a while. But your therapist will be there the entire time so you are not going to be "completely alone". It sounds like you have a good therapist Big Mama. So that is very good.

((Hugs)))