I have mild depression, and have had it for a few years from what I could notice & since I get really quiet when it hits me, I just end up listening to music or walk away from people most the time;
I've started pushing people who care away, but then I'd let them right back in, and act like I wouldn't ignore/hate them.
But since my past was so ****ed up, and I've always ended up being hurt by guys and not being able to have the guys I fell for, I've been more and more depressed

My question is..
Would the reason I won't ever get these few guys that I like, be a little bit of the reason that leads to me being quiet and get depressed?
I don't know for sure, but I'm really thinking the more I think of them, and cry then the more I get depressed.