so i have been reading and reading the e-mails i sent to my T a few days ago. i can't deal with any of this i have been trying so hard to deny anything went on in T .i need to function and get from day to day. i don't know how to deal or what to do about any of it so i want to just walk away from it get a do over in a way. i have been trying to figure out how to do this .i know if i just go into T and just say that i am sorry for the e-mails and totally take responsibility by telling her that i just didn't like hearing what she was saying so threw a major temper tantrum .i know it was wrong and sorry . most people will be OK with something like that and then i hope my T will accept that i am taking responsibility for it and let it go with a small lecture about e-mailing . i know i wont be able to talk about any of it.it would avoid any more frustration for my T. things were horrible and i don't want to feel that way again