Abandonment and rejection are the worst and I feel them most of the time. No matter what I do they are there. I've said this before on a number of different threads, but I guess one more time won't hurt. If the feeling of abandonment didn't exist, I really don't believe I'd have BPD. They make everything else manifest. Due to the feeling of abandonment, I've hit all nine traits at one time or another. Hang on Tinkerbell...you're not alone.