Thanks a lot! I could relate to some of the things you said. But I still don't see this going anywhere, or any other T, for that matter, I guess. The abuse isn't something I think about every day, or anything. It is also something that I refuse to talk to a T about. Because I'm 17, and because of my relationship to the abuser, I don't want to tell a T because I know that they will have to report it, and I KNOW that this would be against my best interest. My parents went to a counselor about it when I was a lot younger (this would be a longer, different story), and that person had to report it, and CPS would come to my house looking for me, an my parents told me to lie to them. I never heard from CPS again. I've learned to separate my abuser as the man that abused me, and the person that people love. Telling a T about him would undoubtedly ruin more lives than just staying quiet. This way, I'm the only one really impacted. I would like to talk to someone about it, but not until after I've left the area and I'm over 18.

The lying about how I feel isn't a T only thing, it's an everyone thing. I can't look someone in the face and talk about my feelings. My T has never written anything down while talking to me. She's really nice and not scary. I think of her more like a friend, which I think is why I lie to her, like I do to everyone else in my life. We mostly just talk about making more friends, which I just don't feel like doing. I normally tell her some things about when I get very upset. All she says about that is to remember to stop and think that everything will be okay, and my feelings will pass. That never works. I have legitimately grown annoyed with her, but now nobody will let me leave her.