So I havent put up a comment i ages.

As much as I'd like to say it's because I feel better, it's not.

Actually, I started feeling rubbish but as if there is something I can do.

Acting.

I go to a workkshop every few weeks to lead up to one 3 day run per year. It's something I've never feel confident on, but it's something I enjoy (as much as I can enjoy life).

This year we are doing a play with only 4 parts. The parts have basically been cast. I'm an extra. So anyone can be an extra. Theres no point in me.

As much as I've been struggling to go on, I've always had one thing to cling to. Now that's gone. And I'm back. I have nothing. The one thing I may have been "talented" on is gone. And now I really have nothing.

I so dont know what to do.. But i cannot see anyone...doctors or councillers. In the past i've seen a counciller. It doesnt help. And i cannot go to the doctors. I hate doctors. Feck.

Sorry for coming back and venting. Hope youre all alright. I kinda hope I hear from you to make sure you're all alright, but I'd kinda like it if you werent on here because you were much much better.

Loves xxx