I'm right there with ya, hon. I guess this is technically depression, but what I really am is indifferent. Except for my new kitten, there's not much to be excited about......not even Christmas, which I've always loved. Didn't even care if the decorations got put up, or anything. I'm just not feeling it this year, which is the first time in my entire life that I've been unable to get into the holiday spirit. I hope that changes before too long, but it's not looking good right now.

Frankly, I think it's because basically, this entire year has SUCKED. Money's been tight all year, too many things have gone wrong with the car and the appliances, and my freaking doctor/medication bills are astronomical. My sister keeps landing in the hospital, and I have to take care of her because I love her and there is no one else to do it. My job is majorly stressful, even though I love it most of the time, and I'm always exhausted from these 50-hour weeks. I've got a son who's an unemployed, alcoholic, bipolar Iraq War veteran living on my couch. I have a daughter who's leaving this weekend for a year in Afghanistan as a civilian contractor (air traffic controller). Two of my cats have died this year. My husband isn't in the best of health, nor am I---I gained over 30 lbs on medications and my diabetes went out of control, plus I've had circulatory problems and of course, I was diagnosed with BP in February.

I've never been so happy to see a year end.....this one has been a nightmare that I just can't seem to wake up from.