yup but its also helps me to be outwardly focus despite that ppl tear u down emotionally saying that ur not good etc etc or even seeing ur condition it will affect ur self-esteem in one way or another wondering ohh can I do this can I do that? instead of being self-focus and when ur being self-focus that's where all the negative thoughts started forming into ur mind and affected u as well. I gone thru a lots before since young until now I have ppl telling me that ur stupid, bullying me, laugh bout me, talk bout me plus of what I have ( mental illnesses ) side-effects of the meds i tell u its really unbearable like "thorns in my Fresh" but what i did to prevent it to take control over me I discover and learn as much as possible and remember to put them into practice of what u discover and learnt. and its all beneficial to help me and others.

with love