she's being so great about this I just can't believe it. I showed her this thread and she said she appreciates me being honest with her and she doesn't think i'm weird and she's not going anywhere because she cares, and more importantly God cares and there might be stuff I don't think I can handle but God can...
I feel so much better. though still a bit guilty about bothering her. Ik she probably never planned on staying up this late..

it just feels too good to be true. I wanna believe her but part of me thinks she's just saying those things and she's gonna leave me...