1. Where do I start? Sure there are medical professionals that can help, but I have no insurance and I cannot afford weekly or even every 3 or 4 month visits. I want to change and get past this depression more than anything, but I don't know where to begin. My husband of 21 years and I recently separated. We don't feel connected to each other any more and haven't for a very long time. I often find it's too hard to talk to him, so we barely have any meaningful conversations. And when we do, they are mostly one sided. And I never initiate conversations. This has always been an issue of mine. I tend to avoid these kinds of situations. Mostly out of fear. Fear that I will say something I don't mean or that he will say something I don't want to hear. I have never been a good conversationalist to begin with, sure I can write all these words, but I would never come out and say what I need to say. I'm so tired of being afraid to say things that need to be said.
2. My self esteem and confidence is non existent. It has been for at least 15 years. How do I begin to get it back? Sure there are websites to help, I've read plenty. But they tell you to just jump right in and do it. I'm here to say, changes like that are not automatic. What are some steps I can take to gradually repair myself? aside from the obvious diet and exercise.