I have nothing to say to you.

And yes that means I have so much to say that I can't even know where to begin. It's going to take so long to sort it all out. I am afraid that it never will. I don't even know if I will be able to tell u... I might not get the chance or I might not be able to get it out.

I am feeling so lost. My safe place no longer feels right. I am wandering. Alone. I don't know where to go or who to turn to.