I used the word road rage but actually I'm talking about public transport. I live and work in Tokyo and I have to take the trains during rush hour and also transfer at Shinjuku station which is the busiest station in the world

Packed trains are uncomfortable but what really gets me is trying to walk through the crowds of people to get to the other side of the station. Or fighting the crowds when I'm leaving my local station on the way home. I think it's the feeling of being controlled that gets me - wanting to walk at my own pace but not being able to get past all the people. I have no problem pushing past people or cutting them off (Japanese salarymen do it too!) People being in my way really stresses me out and makes me passive aggressive.

I understand that crowded conditions will stress out even normal people, but I wonder if it's in anyway magnified by my condition. I'm not sure the best way to describe my challenges, but basically I'm an adult child of a dysfunctional family, codependent, low self-esteem, general unhappiness with life. Maybe it's my adult child challenges - low tolerance for frustration, self-centeredness, lack of compassion from others?

I used to have a car but I never got road rage in a car. I heard somewhere it depends on how much you see the car as an extension of yourself. I'm not really into cars so I guess I didn't take car road rage personally, but walking it really gets to me.