Didn't realize how badly this whole situation has triggered me until now. Sounds stupid hey? I have 1 definite trigger, which is feeling trapped, so you'd think I'd do the math, but no, it takes me 2 weeks to figure it out
Every fibre of my being is screaming 'NO' dont go back to work, 'DON'T' carry all this crap anymore, but I have to, I dont have a choice, and the trigger's pulled again... What a vicious cycle, I'm aggro ALL the time, its unrelenting, its draining...What am I supposed to do...