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Originally Posted by Trippin2.0
Are you sure you're not sinking your dates on purpose? The things you describe seem pretty petty to never contact these women again. I mean, I get pissed pretty easily too, but later I realize its just me, and make ammends... Maybe you're not even aware you're sabotaging your dates, just something to think about. I say, GO FOR IT, see how it goes, and take it from there, also a warm  to our humble abode  |
Yes, they are petty, but this is what I am here for - to understand if this behavior is related to me being bipolar. I read that bipolar like me who cycle very rapidly depending on petty triggers are very reactive and sensitive. I know outside of dating world, small petty comments can plunge me into depression. For example my boss can say something very mildly negative and I would get angry and depressed over something ridiculously small... But that mood would persist for a long time (days, weeks) until someone will pat me on the shoulder with "Good Job!" and I would cycle into hypomania and feel on top of the world for a day or so.
With Lamictal my angry depressive mood that occurs after a petty trigger lasts 5-10 SECONDS at most and then I return to stable.
What I am saying is that if this is related to being bipolar then I should be fine since now I am medicated and stable. BUT if this is some other part of my personality unrelated to bipolar then Lamictal won't help... in that case I should just forget it and settle for hookers because something is wrong with me and I am not meant to reproduce.
What do you think? I mean sometimes I wonder why I even ask this question considering that in my gut I feel that the answer is YES - it is highly related to bipolar behavior, but I am not 100% confident... I don't know.