I am sorry that you find life so dull & disappointing.Something certainly needs to be done so that you could enjoy all the pleasures which others around you enjoy.Life would be so much more fun if only you could open yourself out to it.
I mean,since your life has been a drag so far,think how to change this.The only factor we can change is our own self.You could reinvent yourself so as to find happiness & satisfaction.Please don't take me amiss--it is a bitter reality that we all have to work for our own happiness.Do go through this link below perhaps i will help you--
http://jeeteraho.blogspot.in/2011/11...s-it-self.html