I was like this for a long time. When I first came out of the hospital in 2006 I was in a day treatment program and it was groups all day long for like 7 hours. It drained me. I got absolutely nothing out of it. Then when I graduated from the program I sat around for 5 years. 5 years! What got me out of it is I thought about what I wanted in my life. What do you need that would change the way you feel about life? For me it was getting a boyfriend. A good guy with stability and future goals so I can emulate and look up to. I guess I needed a positive figure in my life. Once I met him everything fell into place. I went to school and I found a job I love. But nothing is perfect because ailments of my illness still haunt me. But I am definitely better off than what I was.

I guess the point of my post on your thread is that I understand where you are and I spent a long time in that place. I used to have no sense of time and no sense of purpose. But I got out of it, and I believe you can too. Set a small goal. Even if you think it is totally stupid and insignificant.