I feel this way a lot. Is it weird that I've come to crave that feeling? I guess it's that point where I can just ignore everything and not care and not caring about what anyone else thinks is nice. (I'm a people pleaser and have OCD that manifest heavily with obsessive compulsive thoughts. Indifference is a relief, I guess.) Anyway. I think you are very self-aware. I think this is a way of coping for you. Sometimes a little quietness is a good thing for a while.