Today I am 50 days sober. It does not sound like a lot, but it feels like forever to me. I have always resorted to alcohol when I am stressed/depressed. It has always been a crutch for me when I no longer want to face or think about the issues within myself.

As the holidays approach I worry about falling back into drinking. I have chose not to go back to my hometown for the holidays. I feel the need to avoid family and friends to better figure out myself.

Has anyone else felt like this about drinking/holidays?