First of all, you DON'T think about suicide! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!! Things aren't always going to be like this. There will come a time when you're OUT of that house.

I came from a dysfunctional family too. My parents were ALWAYS arguing. My sister TORMENTED me -- she was 7 years older than me, and she HATED me. She tormented me from the day I was born until she left when she was 19 yrs old. My parents never did a thing about it cause she was "such an angel." Yeah, right. She darn near killed me.

Don't think about suicide. Can't you IMAGINE what it would do to people? It would DEVASTATE people who care about you. And you're thinking that people don't love you. That's BULL. You ARE loved -- by your family & friends! And you have more friends than you think you do. Family & friends would be just devastated. Suicide is SELFISH. People never think of the ones left behind.

You have a wonderful life ahead of you. Life is a GIFT. Treat it like that. You can do anything you like. Think of something you'd like to spend your life doing. Music? The Arts? Science? Medicine? ???? Anything!
You've got plenty of time to make up your mind.

God bless & please take care. You'll be out of there soon. Hugs, Lee