no one can figure this out for you. we're all different, and it's up to us to find what moves us, what makes us groove, feel alive, and feel better. for me i'm at my best when focused on progression in my daily activites. for me the feeling of working at something and inching along getting better is what i need.

it's so easy to get caught in the dullness of life, especially if you have an illness that makes dullness... a feeling of total sucking. lack of energy really stifles everything. the best thing you can do each day is just try to wake up, and be alert. sometimes we don't even make it passed that point, and the day goes along in a daze. try to get alert for one.

you'll find that simple things like hanging out, or having a conversation can give you pleasure. it can be fun, but if you're real down you don't even want to try, and you deny yourself simple pleasures.

i know what it's like to go through the day bored, and wondering when the hell are things going to change. i say forget about change, and just go ahead and do stuff. you'll discover stuff, by doing stuff. but who cares about discovering, just do. before you know it, if you live an active life you'll begin to realize things are falling into place.