Even when I get down in my darkest moments, I just remember that no matter what issues I have there are people that care about me. Also, and this may seem a little childish, I think of my cats and how Foster will meow and drag all his toys to my room when I am gone one night and how, once when I was locked out because I forgot my keys Salem tried so hard to open the door for me. I go on this life with my issues because of them and those thoughts have kept me alive and out of a lot of hospital visits. Hope things get better for you.