She tells me I've made progress. In the beginning I made a lot of progress right away, but in recent years I became complacent and just saw it as maintenance. But then about 5 weeks ago my life started falling apart so I realized that I need to get more serious about making progress.

Anger is a new thing for me. I've never really been able to express anger. So maybe that's progress too.

Also maybe it has to do with the fact that the T relationship is kind of reminiscent of a mother/daughter relationship in some ways (age difference, mentoring etc) and maybe it's hard for me to feel warm towards someone that reminds me of my mother.

Anyway it's good to know I'm not the only one.