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Originally Posted by Atuin
I've gotten through most of the first level healing. I'm at second and third level now.
I'm really prone to being hurt by people if I had trusted them - to the point of things others get over and are friends still I over a year later can't be in the same room without breaking down in some manner.
I'm having a really hard time opening up to people and trusting them, even having issues talking to my therapist about some stuff (not this actually -this I can talk to her about). Some stuff I can only talk about anonymously online or with my boyfriend currently, but can at least do that, which is better than I was a year ago. Then I could only talk to my boyfriend about it.
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question... could you please explain more about what level of healing you are at?
the reason Im asking is because here in America we dont treat mental disorders as level one, two three...levels of healing. here treatment providers believe everyone heals from abuse at different paces but the paces done have names like levels.
example I got through being embarrassed over what happened to me as a child, then as an adult at times I would become embarrassed again that it happened then I was fine then embarrassment again. the symptom of flashbacks goes away with me then comes back, goes away then comes back.
Another person I know that was abused in childhood got through her symptoms and they never came back.
another person with abuse related symptoms that I work with her symptoms are long lasting with no breaks from them....yet.
each of us go through healing at different paces and heals from our individual symptoms in different ways too..
example what helps me is physical activities, the second person listed above paints, journals and the last one medication helps her.
even though we go through our healing journeys in different paces and different ways that work, here they are not called "levels".
so I was wondering what you meant by you have healed at level one and was at levels two and three.
I know its hard that others around you may not feel what you went through was abuse. there are many people in this world who have gone through abuse and are not believed or they shrug if off when someone tells them they were abused.
Sometimes too things are not called abuse even though you feel like it because of the laws. Some places have different standards, laws and rules for what is called abuse and what isnt,
example here where I live and work in NY, USA walking up to someone and giving them a hug with out asking first can sometimes be called Assault and molestation. where as in France it is common place and not called assault when someone walks up to someone they know and with out permission gives them a hug.
my suggestion talk with your therapist they can help you understand why what happened to you is or inst called abuse in your location. and my opinion is it really doesnt matter whether ***other people*** believe you were abused or not. what matters is whether ****you *** feel like you have been abused and how you deal with it. keep working with your therapist and things will get better.