And thanks, it means a lot to hear somebody say that it was natural.
I have tried to justify to myself what I had done, but I always learned that killing somebody, no matter what is the worst commandment to break. I tell myself that he could not have survived anyway because he couldn't swim very well, but still I can not figure why I had to hit him when I was lose and he was no longer a threat, but I wasn't thinking, maybe it's just pure instinct, but a better pperson would have swum away, thats what I keep thinking. If I had just swum away. That's not logical, wasting energy hitting somebody on the head when you have a lot of swimming in rough waters in front of you, It just doesn't make sense.