I am trying not to talk to the other women but I can't quit, she is so understanding,mature someone I can share my feelings with, she understands me. I love my wife I tell her that she knows that.I am not any good at talking to people I do not trust and know ,I truthfully trust her and her opinions I am sorry I know it isn't right, she makes me feel really good about life.I even got her to join PC site. Very unstable at home not sure were my wifes feelings are any more says mean things but not all the time. I have been drinking more NOT HARD DRINKING just beer. I am getting to the point in my life I don't want to be miserable anymore I want enjoy life. I feel my wife is having issues just as I am she seems not very happy, how do help to change make things good I am lost in were to turn all are counseling is done I see us not doing any better as far as feelings I am scared it might be over soon.Over soon is that bad to say I don't know anymore,I have tried but I believe what has happened in the past never got mended I am not sure. Seems might be to late but I will push forward as long as I can but seems real bad to me.