I am so exhausted and miserable...it is taking everything I have to respond. But I want you all to know I hear you, I do understand what you have written and shared and taken the good advice to heart. I will "adore" "placate" act "subservient" and "submissive" this week while they are here...and figure out next steps after.

I will continue to work very hard, push myself, scramble, and get the job done. With a smile. Totally professionally. Still. Even if it kills me. I will be in these peoples' presence and the only energy they will detect from me is pure adoration and slave mentality. Yes Sir. Yes Madame. Right away. Consider it done. Adoration.

(I already did / planned everything I could with limited info on Friday, so I feel good about that part...everything is all on schedule).

Now, it is just a matter of putting on the Grand Show: facing my abusers and not hiding or feeling less-than or completely humiliated. Standing tall, chin up. No matter how much it hurts.

Thank you Friends