I also feel like I've wasted my life. I'm 29 and have nothing to show for it. I have a degree in culinary arts that is essentially useless because I can't handle to stress of the kitchen. I'm on disability for depression. I don't have a car, I don't have a nice apartment. My family has made me out to be the black dog. I really don't talk to my family because they think I'm just using the system for my gain. If I could work I would. I have loads and loads of debt that I don't ever think will be payed off. I have constant thoughts of suicide as well as other thoughts of harming myself. I feel so bad that I can't even fathom having a relationship. I feel so lonely. Nobody seems to care, or I am so far gone I can't tell. I would love to go back to school, but I have to shed my current load debt before I do that. I just feel that I'm wasting away, and not in margaritaville.