I received a FB message from my ex-GF that has managed to tear me out of the "emotionally numb" zone:

I hope you and *H* had a great anniversary today. 12 years..who would of thought we would be where we are today. It appears that someone knew more about us and how things would turn out better than we did. My wish for you is to be happy and know that you are loved. That will never change.

My response:

Thanks, *ex-GF*. I guess you're right and I always want you to have what makes you happy. I've learned what love really is, and the main component of true love is selflessness. I will love you always.

It's amazing what a few words can do. I hate loving 2 people in that way. I love H. I love her.