I used to look at your texts and smile. It would make my day. Now, I look and I grimace. What changed?

I was going back through emails. And things changed 9/3, right before that rupture where u forgot to call me when u said that u would. But that's not why things changed. It was something else. And I don't know what. Maybe it had to do with the hip replacement in the planning, because that was your last show. Maybe when u come back, u will be like a new you. The thing is, I don't want a new u. It took me a yr to trust you. And I didn't even trust u 100%. I don't think I can last starting all over again

My friend told me that it would be too traumatizing for me to get a new t. But no one ever considered how traumatizing it would be to stay with u