Just look at your last several posts on the I need to tell you something, T thread and you should be able to see evidence of how your constant over-thinking and hyperfocus on all things T keeps you in a place on negativity and seems to perpetuate crises where there really probably don't need to be any.

I know your T being away for surgery has been hard on you, but your "thinking" starting even before your last appointment with her was that you were going to go into crisis, you were going to have a hard time, etc. You predicted and set yourself up for being pretty miserable for the last couple of weeks BECAUSE you started overthinking this whole scenario into a crisis for you before it had to even become one. You talked yourself into what your are feeling right now through your obsessive thinking about your T, not consciously obviously, but that's where you've ended up nevertheless.

I know, none of us like to hear that we've talked ourselves into how miserable we are feeling, but the fact is, generally that is what we do to ourselves. I am just as guilty as the next person. That negative thinking comes so often from ruminating and getting all those negative scenarios rolling in our minds that take on a life of their own. We latch onto those negative thoughts like a bulldog and refuse to let them go.

You said you think overthinking gives you a way to "deal with the idea of uncertainty, which comes with a lack of trust," but your overthinking hasn't helped you. Your write things that show you are incredibly uncertain and even more untrusting now than you were a couple of weeks ago, mainly because you've done nothing but think about all the bad things you can about your T as possible over the last few weeks.

Try to give your brain a rest. You stopped meds, but weren't they supposed to be helping you with your obsessive thinking? (Please pardon me if I have you confused with someone else.) You do seem to be having a harder time since you went off meds, and perhaps these last few weeks would have been at least a bit more manageable had your meds been on board to slow and calm that obsessive thinking down.