I wake every night about 3:00am. Instantly I can feel the Adrenalin or what ever the hormones are called flow throughout my body. I have not the slightest idea why. I'll lay there in a state of terror for at least 3 hours, hoping it will go away. During that time, all the most difficult times in my life will run through my mind at high speed. I can't control my thoughts. I can feel my heart beating, pounding as if I have been running or heavy lifting. I try to keep breathing at a steady rate because it seems as if my body will stop breathing if left on it's own. I've been living this way for 12 years now. It has left me unemployed and unemployable. All relationships have ended except for one that only hangs on by a thread. If anyone can relate to this...how long can a human live this way. I hope it is not much longer.....