I tried just running from the past.....and really burnt myself out that way. Now its hard for me to even wrap my head around there being a future or much of one anyways. So I am stuck not wanting to be stuck in the past but obviously that is easier said than done when it wont get out of my head...but yet there is nothing to work towards as far as a future it seems. Its like a stagnant purgatory or something to that effect.