I've reassessed my own thoughts that used to be about wanting it to be over. i realized that with all the things in my life, my kids and much more, that even when I am that down, if I remember them, remember those things, it may not remove the dark feelings but it gives me just enough of an edge to get through the next night, hours or soemtimes even just minutes.

I also realized that it's not usually that I want completely out of life, its that I want whatever overwhelming darkness that surrounds me to come to an end. That I just want out of the absolute pain at the moment. When I started seeing it this way, ending it or even not caring if I made it to the next day became a non-option.