Sometimes it was so bad I couldn't even mind my own buisiness completely without people going out of their way to make me feel excluded. I couldn't very well do anything about it either as me vs. the herd would have likely not ended well for me. Some teachers I had were alright though they didn't really do much about the situation either, not sure what they could have done.

I mean I even found out during the lockdown that was the major tramatic event that really kind of outdoes the others...that I was thought of as someone who would potentially be the cause of such a thing. Then when of course everyone found out I wasn't the psychopath with the gun they still thought I couldn't possibly be at all affected let alone traumatized. If I had been open about it everyone would have accused me of just trying to get attention so I had no choice but to sort of keep it to myself.