Nor would I. But traumatic experiences in my experience manifest themselves in a wide variety of ways. If it helps Big Mama, then so be it. My guess, and I do stress guess, is that it allows you to view sexuality A) Under your control and comfort and B) With a degree of passion, based on your preferences. That, I don't think, is unusual at all.

lol I think good call on not posting...lol I'm sure a quick google search is more than you could ever watch, and I'm sure someone could PM you or vice versa if you wanted swaps.