i am trying to be normal and happy but i just don't think i will ever know how. tonight my mind if filled with all kinds of horrors of my past and i dont know ware to put it. i swear i relive these horrors every day and i don't have any idea how to stop it. i have tried T but i have no voice .i have SIed but it always end up in the same place. i so want to get this out of my head but when i speak words it is unbearable for me to see. way to real. what do i do .everything is so wrong.how do i make it right ?how do i get all this horror out of my head??