The holidays are always difficult for me--I have to see the person who hurt me and my PTSD symptoms always go way up between Thanksgiving (first "family visit") and Christmas (second "family visit").

Usually I take respite in work, but that environment is triggering to me right now, too. Something big is going on and everyone is stressed, on edge, and angry about it. My #1 trigger is anger so I am spending a lot of time afraid, feeling like something awful is about to happen.

All the great coping things T and I have been working on feel out of my reach. I try to think of what we've done together and it's like it keeps slipping out of my grasp. I can't quite figure out what I am supposed to do to feel better when it gets this bad.