It has been awhile since I posted here, TBH I have mixed emotions about my T right now, I feel like she cares a lot about me as she is doing the most she can do to help me but leaving therapy is so hard for me emotionally.

She said that I have 1 session left with her in January which we arranged last week but after seeing her today I got the impression that she wants to extend them but I can't be sure, I talked about how I was just beginning to trust her and this was ending and she explained that this was always short term which of course I always knew that, I told her that I am not sure that I can do therapy again she asked why I then went on to say I feel I can't go through this again, She has offered to come to any assessments with me and she even wants to meet with my new CPN I know that she cares, I don't want to leave, I got very upset today, It is very hard, If I knew it was going to be like this I would never have started therapy in the first place.