(I mention psychosis, but this isn't just about that, really. I think, if its too schizo/psychosis go ahead and move)

The voices are back, a few weeks ago, I lost touch with reality...completely. There was no house, here, people or even me...nothing existed but the grey fog I was in...but since I wasn't real, in a way it wasn't either. My husband doesn't want me to go back to the hospital, so I haven't brought it back up. =/ The fact that he doesn't want me to go back has me thinking...what if I don't need it? My voices have been telling me for weeks that everyone thinks I am faking and are growing tired of the faking and me. That everyone in my family is talking about me and my faking, laughing at me, disgusted with the faking and me. Am I faking it? What if I am? Could I fake it? But how can it be fake, when it doesn't feel fake? When it scares the ***** out of me, how can it be fake? But what if it is?

I don't think I know anything anymore =( I don't think I can be helped.