I am trying not to cut, but I'm ending up back in the same place I'm always in.
I realize now that my cutting is triggered whenever I feel completely alone. Which I think is a really sad reason to cut. Which is when the semesters end and I can't meet with my counselor. When I have no one to talk to. It's harder this time, because my dog, who was really my best friend, my only friend. Died in october and her death has been hard to get over. I've always felt alone, but its never felt this bad. I'm trying not to choose cutting as my option, but it seems to be the only way right now. I hope that made sense.
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