This part of my life makes me ashamed,ashamed ive had relationships where love and or respect was not there.The feeling of being unloved and cared for drove me towards casual relationships that made me feel good about my self for seconds or minutes then later drown in regret,self loathe and mostly in tears when i realised i was all on my own again,this trend is almost an addiction now finding temporary solace how do i move on and how do i get back to loving myself first,am i ever going to view intimacy as an act of love or il forever associate it with the vice and sadness it currently brings?