Have you been diagnosed as schizo? Even, if you haven't you imply you have been hospitalized for this before? Why doesn't your husband want you to go back to the hospital? You can receive the treatment you need there. Please don't worry about what others feel of you and your condition, or how they think you are faking it. That is their issue to deal with, not yours. Do what you need to do to bring yourself back to reality and have some peace of mind.

I have known a couple of people with Schiz...and it's not an easy time with delusions, hallucinations & voices....I hope you can do what is best for you, even if you don't have the support of your family. Sometimes what people cannot see they just cannot understand (my family for years have thought I was faking PTSD and agoraphobia...lots of good that all did me, I am waist deep in doo because of all the schmutz they put on me instead of either supporting me, or just keeping their comments to themselves, ya know?).

Please keep posting on the board, let me know how you are. Know you are not alone, and you have support here!

hugs, Lisa