I agree with Big Mama. But if you decide you want to come out to your parents, you should be prepared for any reaction you think they'll have. Tell them you know it's hard to accept, but you're giving them your honest feelings on the matter. If you're more comfortable, you might consider having a friend with you when you tell them, especially if that friend gets along well with your parents. I'm sorry, I know this is so hard for you, but as Big Mama said, there are a lot of people here at PC who will listen and, when we think we can, give advice.