I don't know what to say so I will offer a hug. Remember that even if there are people "out there" who don't understand, there are people here who do. Eventually we will find some good real life friends. And they may last, they may not, but then if they don't last we will find another. Patience, send a thought out to the universe, I am ready for my friend now. There are friends out there looking for you too, it's just a matter of a small miracle to connect together.