I did read it to the end. Having deja vu, you've told us about your sensei before I think.

This is hard, but you learn some things from her about healthy boundaries. She is setting what she's ok with and what she's not. Friends can't be our therapists, they are too emotionally attached to our pain.

Hard time, but learn from it, this is how you get to know yourself and your multitude of facets. Which one is really you? They are all you. Now you choose which ones you want to nurture, and you can be like sensei. Stay on your path and there may be olympics, or competitions, or travel, or anything, but definitely there will be answers on this path.